Life is really good right now. At least from a worldly perspective. I have a great job, all my physical needs are met, my family loves me and I love them, I’m going to be an aunt, I’m going on an amazing, life-changing trip in 19 days, I love spin class and oh yeah, I AM A DAUGHTER OF THE MOST HIGH GOD OF THE UNIVERSE! So why did something that is not even real hurt my feelings?

Someone I am not close to (an acquaintance) acted in a way that seemed dismissive to me..I was literally hurt, disappointed and sad for the past 5 days! Then I woke up today and didn’t even think about it. 

Later in the day I remembered and realized that it didn’t hurt anymore. Seriously? Why 5 days? Why did I care in the first place and if it was important enough to hurt me for 5 days why on the 6th day did I no longer care?

My thoughts during the week:

What they did probably had nothing to do with me.
Why am I so sensitive?
Do I see every action of others through the filter of my insecurities?
If so, doesn’t that mean that my perception of reality is incredibly skewed?
What are the lies I believe that keep me from living in freedom in Christ?
How subtle the lies must be that I have internalized them as truth.

Thank you Father for allowing my heart to be stung. You always reveal unhealed wounds through pain. Renew my mind and my heart. 

“Do not be conformed to this world, but continually be transformed by the renewing of your minds so that you may be able to determine what God’s will is-what is proper, pleasing, and perfect.”

Romans 12:2

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