May 2008


Life is really good right now. At least from a worldly perspective. I have a great job, all my physical needs are met, my family loves me and I love them, I’m going to be an aunt, I’m going on an amazing, life-changing trip in 19 days, I love spin class and oh yeah, I AM A DAUGHTER OF THE MOST HIGH GOD OF THE UNIVERSE! So why did something that is not even real hurt my feelings?

Someone I am not close to (an acquaintance) acted in a way that seemed dismissive to me..I was literally hurt, disappointed and sad for the past 5 days! Then I woke up today and didn’t even think about it. 

Later in the day I remembered and realized that it didn’t hurt anymore. Seriously? Why 5 days? Why did I care in the first place and if it was important enough to hurt me for 5 days why on the 6th day did I no longer care?

My thoughts during the week:

What they did probably had nothing to do with me.
Why am I so sensitive?
Do I see every action of others through the filter of my insecurities?
If so, doesn’t that mean that my perception of reality is incredibly skewed?
What are the lies I believe that keep me from living in freedom in Christ?
How subtle the lies must be that I have internalized them as truth.

Thank you Father for allowing my heart to be stung. You always reveal unhealed wounds through pain. Renew my mind and my heart. 

“Do not be conformed to this world, but continually be transformed by the renewing of your minds so that you may be able to determine what God’s will is-what is proper, pleasing, and perfect.”

Romans 12:2

This site has really improved since I visited it last! The book prices are way lower than Amazon or Lifeway! They have all kinds of books, movies and music. Their used books are dirt cheap! I know, I know, like I need to buy more books.

I get it, I’m a nerd. Shut up.

New Glasses!

Captain Slaughter and Mommy-to-Be!
I’m going to be an aunt!

Twins 🙂

(Excerpt from “Awakening” by Switchfoot-Good for working out to, rocking out to and/or praising.)

“Last week saw me living for nothing but deadlines,
With my dead beat sky but, this town doesn’t look the same tonight
These dreams started singing to me out of nowhere
And in all my life I don’t know that I’ve ever felt so alive, alive

Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We’re awakening
Here we are now with the desperate youth in pain,
We’re awakening
Maybe it’s called ambition, but you’ve been talking in your sleep
About a dream, We’re awakening

I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to know that my heart’s still beating,
It’s beating, I’m bleeding.
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to live like I know what I’m leaving
I want to know that my heart’s still beating,
Is beating, Is beating, It’s beating, I’m bleeding

Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We’re awakening
Here we are now with the desperate youth in pain,
We’re awakening
Maybe it’s called ambition, but you’ve been talk, talking in your sleep
About a dream, We’re awakening dream, We’re awakening.”

Bonus! A fun, guitar-hero inspired video!!!

I saw Prince Caspian Wednesday night with Amber. I know you expect me to say it was a good movie and of course it was…but it was more. It was medicine.

I saw myself in every scene.
I saw God’s word richly played out, stirring my cold heart.
I “saw” the Holy Spirit and Joy.
I heard Jesus and I longed for Him.
I heard satan and his familiar seductions.

Every time I heard that roar in the distance I, like Lucy wanted to chase and pursue the One who pursued me.
How I longed for Him not to remain in the shadows of the Narnian woods but to come, to heal and to protect me! Oh how brave she must have felt with Him at her side!!

I could only hold back my tears until I was alone at home.

How I long to see your face King Jesus! To hear Your voice like a thousand rushing waters, to see your eyes like all the fires of the Sun! One day…A kingdom, a Bride, holy priests and our High Priest on our white horses…I could dream of it all day 🙂

 

“Stop weeping, behold, the Lion that is from the tribe of Judah, the Root of David, has overcome…and they sang a new song…”

Revelation 5:5 & 9

“Aslan is on the move.”
-The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.

I saw this short but fascinating article about Alexander Cruden on Desiring God’s website. An Interesting story of the man who wrote the first complete concordance of the King James Bible (by himself in his spare time!)

The concordance was first published in 1737 and there are currently 18 different versions available today.

Apparently, the guy was quite a nut and thank God for him! 777,746 words later this good, insane concordance maker created a tool invaluable to all Bible students (including me) wanting to search the depths of God’s rich word.

“Beware of belittling God’s crooked sticks. With them he may write the message that that makes a thousand people glad.”

-John Piper

Maria (seated in dad’s lap) was tragically killed today.
Praise You Father that you are Jehovah-Shammah, The Lord is There, & Jehovah-Rophe,The Lord Who Heals. We will see you soon!

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